Jealousy

i'm confused so so confused and yet i don't know what to do
so many problems especially family problems, it's not my own family but it's cousin's family problem. since i'm staying with them.
and i've rethink that i might out from this city....
i was inspired by Kelly Clarkson song, 'BREAKAWAY',
' take a risk, take a change and BREAKAWAY'.
since this things happened, i'm definetely 99% confirmed and make my decision.
At first, i'm still in dilemma, whether i should move or not...but now, i know the answer.
gosh, it's so hard to live with family, jealousy aroused.
i don't know why so many ppl in the house get jealous to me, especially my cousin.
oh come one, you are 9 years older than me, and you already have your own family, husband and a lovely child.
you have cars, jewelleries more than me...but why you still get jealous of me?
i don't have all of that...
i know i'm plump and chubby but it's none of your business whether i can get bf or not.
don't always say that i have high standard, and none of the high standard guys would like to date me.
hey come on, our soulmate is given from GOD, even you said so but if GOD permits, you don't have a say....
one thing, jealousy won't get you anywhere....
there's beginning for jealousy but no end for jealousy
keep that in mind
and jealousy is not sexy as what 'The Killers' sing....
if in a relationship, it might be sexy, but it's not when there's something behind the jealousy.
It's a bad thing, and you don't want that.