How do I feel?

feelings...anyone can define that?
none of us can't..it's from your heart and only you can feel it...

numb...i feel so numb sometimes and then suddenly change to mixed feelings.
it's been a month since i return to my lovely hometown, however, i feel like it's only yesterday that i'm still in tw.
i'm sooooooooooooooooooooooo love tw, i don't know why but maybe 2 weeks without worrying over your job and just relax, make new friends and enjoy everything. i just love that feelings, care free hehehhe...

2 wks in tw makes me realize that my mandarin is below average hhahahhaa....but i enjoy the company, enjoy the friends and all that laugh that we share...and hopefully still keep in touch with all of them.
that's the good thing, i went to clubbin' things that i've never done in my own hometown, and i'm having the time of my life, enjoying every minute but i'm not drunk, i'm still sober~ yes, been drunk and not gonna be in that position again...especially with all friends that i just get to know hehehe..sometimes you just can't trust ppl so easily you need to be alert all the time

the bad thing is that i shop too much..i'm totally broke now and i still owe my parents for all the money that i've spent on bags, clothes and wallets hahhaha..but i'm satisfied even one of my friends said that you can't change the bag into money, once you bought it, you can't trade it with money, well, you can but only with lower price.
but the fendi bag that i bought is classic one even my mom can use it, so we can share it :P (guess, this is one of the reasons to comfort my self) hahhaha...

i really miss everyone in tw, well, i have 2 crushes lah hehehee..but things are really not possible. it's long distance relationship and i don't believe in LD even though some ppl really believe in LD.well, i'm not!
so better keep as it is and friends and keep in touch...then i need to find my soulmate somewhere in my hometown.....

i don't think my title is connected with what i wrote ya...i just simply write down what's in my thought and don't really care abt the title..this is what i feel right now....